CHRISTMAAAAS.

OMG its Christmas sooon! i gotta say time does fly by.
This month is so hectik and busy i swear, people buying late presents, rusing through busy and crowded shopping malls looking for the perfect gift, and aiming to buy that perfect gift for someone in less than a day, i got to say people these days should seriously plan out there schedules.
PARTIES PARTIES PARTIES are probably the trademark for teenage life especially at christmas, as they always say party like a rockstar. Non-stop partying until christmas eve is like the best christmas for teens nowadays, dawgging there worried parents at home with their traditional way of spending their christmas eve, sitting beside the fire; telling those famous santa stories; opening presents under the big green christmas tree; eating a big feast of roasted chicken with every single family member to your great great nephew in your mother side to your great great grandparents in your father side and having non stop chats until dawn? isnt it. The typical family christmas eve.

But what about the people who are all alone; no family; with no where to go; how would they spend christmas? A bleak and dark christmas, that doesnt sound right. Christmas is a happy time, a time when family reunions and meet ups is a must; buying eye opening presents for a loved one; and just spending time with close family and friends, telling stories and catching up with the years that they have missed with one another; and also most importantly its the time to show your love to one another; its the only time, its the perfect time.

Its really sad to see people all alone at Christmas, its just so lonely and heartbreaking, having no joy at this special time of the year, which occurs once in a year, is sad. As they always say "people with no sense of joy and fun in their lives can seriously kill them on the inside". So if you know someones alone invite them, or the least you can do is to give them a pat on their back and say merry christmas, its the simplest thing anyone can do but these simple words are the most uplifting words someone can ever give you on that special day of the year, Christmas.

SMOOOOKEES

OMG heey maan! its been such a long time since i last posted something.

Well a lot of shit happened, ups and downs- damn right! its always there to freaking haunt me i swear! Well i just had a lecture because of trying a ciggarette, yea i know right "tsk tsk tsk, cant believe i broke my morals". I full on had a lecture by leanne & full on called Patricia just to have a back up, omg maan but still they are right though. Though knowing me & my personality, i just couldnt help but try. I just love trying new things, its just the best.

Yeah anyways they full on had a speech about it, yea they were right, though my curiousity took over me at that time. Well i also had a "diciplinary big brother talk" with my cousin, haha i love him man though he's going to call my mum if he finds out if i took just even one drag though i can try the "flavoured cigg" just one puff then NONE! and of course i also had a big "no no talk" with vapex, i so wish she wouldnt tell layla - or else i will be dead!. Weirdly, i understand now why people take "drags" when they are so problematic because of life threatening worries of dos and donts. I believe its because of its relaxing release of smoke in your lungs, aagghhh, its very sootheing and harmful as well. I feel very sorry for the people who are so addicted to this and suffers from the life threatening diseases and potential death occurance that can happen in no time. I feel very grateful that i have friends that actually, suprisingly care about me and my stupid actions and decisions that i have made in my life. It makes me feel loved and cared for, i love them so much and without them, i will probably be one of those druggos and drunkies in the streets without any care for the future.

I grauranteed that it was my first and my last smoke because i promised so much people, and i dont want to let them down.

My explanation of love.

What is love to you, is it something that you want to have cause everyone has someone that is dear to their heart? or is it to complete the imbalance feeling deep within your heart? or something that you just want for social purposes and to be known as the stereotypical players and sluts that we have today? or are you just one of those people that thinks love exist only in fairy tales and stories? or are you someone who thinks that love doesnt exist at all? and that its the perfect excuse of fulfilling the need and cravings that we have from our day to day experiences? or are you one of those people who think that we could not be possibly understand what love means because we are too young to experience that strong feeling?

Personally, i think that we cant fully understand what love means, until we are much older "the older the wiser you get" as i always say. ut i also think that we gain experiences from our day to day struggles that adds up in our "book of experiences" in the topic about love. I think that love is the most beautiful thing that you could ever find, its something that is so plainly wonderful which cause you to sleep soundly at night and wake up in the morning with the biggest smile in your face, "its the closest thing to magic", cheesy right!. I think love is something that we cannot rush like after having the biggest painful break up you've ever had and going to some other person to mend the pains that he or she have caused you, is just plain stupid. I think that when you are going into deep relationships you accept all the flaws and differences you have with that someone and just give your all to them, love them, kiss them and care for them, tell them that you love them and never let them go. Cheesy right, but love is just something that gives you that wonderful feeling and also the worst and the most horrible feeling in the world.

Ultimate happiness, happiness that is never-ending and so perfect that gives you butterflies in your stomach. Every time you see that special someone of yours, and when you see that person, you know that they are the one, someone that you can spend your whole life with. You sacrifice everything for them, do things that you've never thought of doing, and do alot of crazy things, and the best part about love is it makes you happy and it makes you feel special. Like a little kid opening the first ever present that he/she has ever got. Your just so happy, and you feel so free and loved at the same time. Its something that you cannot describe its just ultimate happiness.

And when that relationship ends, dont just go to some other person to mend that broken heart. Personally i think that its quite stupid when people treat love as a plain kids game! after breaking up with someone dear to their heart, they go around to some person hoping that he/she can give the love you used to have. I think that its the most lowest thing anyone can ever do. When loving someone its natural that you will get into fights and end up with broken hearts, its the circle of life, something that we shouldnt treat as a kids game, it does leave you with scars that stays there forever and when you find that someone just hold on tight, never leave them hanging, always tell them that you love them, treat them specially, and when you have fights tell them that you're sorry and that you love them very much, and when the relationship is over, just move on. As i always say "theres a reason why your last relationsip didnt work out", because if it did, you wil never meet that perfect someone who completes you, someone who treats you specially, someone that will give you endless happiness. Im not saying that you should just throw everything away, you should realise that every relationship always have its ups and downs, and its perfectly normal to have problems in your relationships, that's why you work them out, they made you happy once, why not again. If it doesnt work then move on, there's a lot people the deserve you, maybe he or she wasnt the one. Theres a lot of fishes in the sea.