tatto&piercings.

It’s true what they say – once you get bitten by the piercing bug, you’re going to want more. And more. Until your body resembles a pincushion and knowingly, most people in our society would surely have the wrong expression of you.

It's been about 3-4 months since i got my 4th ear peircings done, and knowing me, im still not contented yet. I want a lip ring, and thinking of getting my 5th ear peircings done again but only the left side. I've been thinking about those piercings since last year and now i'am seriously itching to get it. Sadly, if i did get a lip ring my parents would practically murder me, because of the "asian society and its stupid stereotypical shits"that seriously bothers me a lot. Its pretty stupid because of the Asians' point of how that “Facial piercings will attract weirdos and will drive decent people away,” as my mom said. But just because people have facial piercings doesn’t mean that they spending their spare time doing drugs and just shag people all day long . Knowingly, im not the goody too shoos type of person, you'll know that if you really know me", She wants me to be the perfect daughter who "dresses sensibly and acts appropriately", which iam seriously opposite of that. I'm very tom boyish in some ways and act like i don't give a shit about anything. Like for example, on e day me and my mum were arguing becuase i was swearing hard out to my little brothers early in the morning and got in shits, "girls like you should not talk like that, dont be like those people who are in the streets with so much tattoos and peircing in their faces just hanging and bumming around all day long, without any appropriate education" as my mum stated. And of course i always talk back " Well whats wrong with that, i want a tattoo, then angrily she came up to me then wack!. Well asian parents are allowed to hit their kids as part of their "ultimate discipline" which does'nt work with me anyway.

But I’d never allow my parents to make important life decisions for me, like what career path to take or who to marry, they can have their way with the little things. But never getting another piercing -oh so not going to happen, ill get my lip ring & my 5th ear peircing, but the tattoo part, they can get their own way, just to make them happy.

work.

james.

Dear James,

You're so cool cause you have the same birthday as me, same date, year & month, cool ayes. Youre like my twin, describing you is soo hard, but i know well enough but your not one of those people that i cant describe easily, hmm youre very IMMATURE, dirty minded & also a very nice friend :) i guess thats james for me. We've been through our fair share of ups and down in life, but weirdly we have a lot of things in common if you know what i mean;).

I know that family and friends are like the most important in the world to you, which is awesome and great, its better than being someone who doesnt care for anything. James Intal, you have a little sister called Patricia and i call her tricia for some weird odd reason, and also you have a little brother called Paulo, a dirty minded one of that. You have a very outgoing dad and a typical filo mum. But i know that sometimes you get all insecure because of your family.

We've known each other for 2 years now. You can be very stubborn at times, and when you get introuble or when you are angry you just end up cracking up rather than being all in an "emotional mood". You're into japanese stuff but i know youre not that into them, like before. You're really nice, which is a weakness to you, cause you cant say no to other people. You sleep soo late, just like me. You love phone calls, and goes forever, non stop, talking on the phone, big ass phone bill. You're a good friend, you give good advices & sometimes if you dont know what to say, you just make up other shits and yeah youre a good friend.

Marieeeel.

justanotherday.

Another day goes b,y thank God this term is nearly finishing, i seriously cannot wait for the holidays.But sadly, its gonna be so fcking hot:( eeww. welcome back dark skin, its time for the beach.

I have a clear idea what my holidays will be like, out out, city, city, party, party,beach, sleepover, camping.
yeahs same old same old, and i wouldnt be at home, probably ill stay at home for like 2 days only, like last holidays. But i know its gonna be fun. But sadly, im getting old more wrinkles thank you very muchLOL. Well, look at the bright side im going to be 16 on February i can have my Ls yay.
Well im gonna see the people i call "family" whom i love with all my heart (L) they are the best people in the world, we are gonna have sleepovers, well now its not gonna happen:( poor guy he must be very down, cus of this. & of course city, as usual. weirdly they dont come here, i sacrifice my time just going to the city back & forth thats totals up to 2 hrs ish in the train. sighs see how much i love them (L) but i know they love me too;)
Well im going camping again with family friends,yeah our camping place is near the beach goodbye white skin and hello tanned skin, which got tanned already cus ive been tanning a lot in the sun. i like it, its really relaxing!

I hope that im gonna see my cousins cus they are the best & i love them so much, they are not even my cousins they are my brothers, i thank them cause they are always here when i need them the most but i know one day we will go in our seperate ways:( which saddens me, the person i call my big brother, to the person i call my twin, to the person i call my lil bro and lastly to the person i call my lil sister, which can be really annoying most of the times. I hope that when we grow up with will still be close like we are now (L)

well i cant wait until school is over, GRADUATION ! faar bro, cant wait for that, yeah i know ill be all emotional & cry but thats life. Life is full obstacles that you have to pass, & me being in this place, yr 10, scares me i have to think hard about my future and right now my goal is to have fun while i can, and happily thats what iam doing right now. yeah i dun have a school yet for next year but oh wells, ill find one, i know its crazy i gotta find one now right now, but im really worried about it. all im doing now is to have fun, until i havc no time left.

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You know what i realised, everything about me is changing pretty rapidly.
Im not the girl i used to be, everything changed, good & bad.
Oh wells thats life. Now, i think a lot of things are shit & lame & mostly the biggest drag in the world. I see things in a different perspective, like seeing the world upside down

I was young, playful & so innocent before everything started cramming in my life.
These stupid shits started coming which kinda made me emotionless, and just plain dead.
But dont really fucking care anymore, its more like a wtf, wth,fck yu, STFU all the time. Couldnt really be bothered as much anymore, fail or pass dont really fucking care.

Trying new things are like the best things in life, good or bad dont really care.
Its like being someone who has no emotions, goals & ambitions in life.
Kinda sad right? for me its more like a go with the flow thing, but watever happens happens.
I kinda get jealous to the people who knows what they wanna be & do in the mere future, and me still figuring out my next move, and thinking about what will happen to my future and shits.

All im doing now is just living my life. You never know when you will die, it can be tomorrow, today and yeah you get the point. I pretty much live through "some quotes" in life. Like "live life to the fullest", "just spend watever you want to spend, cause when you grow up you wont have the chance", "you have a million and 1 reasons to be happy" which i find hard to believe, cause you mostly you see the bad things in life than the good ones & also "important ones come late" LOL.

I get scolded a lot cause of going out too much & spending way too much, aka im BROKE. I get scolded by my friends and family like today, i got scolded by my little brothers saying that ill be poor when i grow up, sure thats true if i dont stop. its not my fault im an impulse buyer LOL i just buy it if i like it, oh wells thats me to you.

Also what pisses me off is that people UNDERESTIMATE me way too much. yeah i know i can seriously act seriously dumb and stupid at times, but i dont think its nice when people will be like "Mariel you're so dumb" and every single comment that is related to that. I find it degrading and a reason to hate them even more. I know its a joke but sometimes it gets way too far and seriously annoying. It like everytime i do something that is "not dumb & stupid" to them its like "OMFG what happened to you, its a joke right" honestly people are good in different areas in life and them saying that makes me feel hopeless and degraded.
I seriously love the people who doesnt make me feel what some people make me feel. They would always make me feel accomplished, happy and revived from my day to day struggles of perfection. With them i can be a person who is imperfect and just be a real person, who doesnt need to worry about everything and everyone. These people are the people i call my "family", they dont underestimate me, they make me feel accomplished ad motivated. Being with them makes my whole week or more, that is how much i love them(L), Without them, i will be a failure in life, becuase of my hard struggles and complications in life, being without them would seriously bring me down. They would always cheer me up when im down and they would always be the first people to hear everything i did and will do. i love them soo much and without them, then life wouldnt be as worthwhile as it would be right now.